Hey guys!
I bet all of you should be relaxing and starting to enjoy your holiday!
Hope you all treasure your time and make use of it especially for this year Sec 3.
Next year is our show, O LEVEL!
And my teacher kept on telling us to study instead of playing during this coming Dec holiday.
I took it seriously that i will force myself to study no matter what.
But right now, i am quite disappointed with my EOY results.
One word for it, suckish.
My overall is okay but English really pull me hard that i failed my overall result.
Is like, really shocked me and i can't believe that i am the bottom few in my class.
I almost wanted to cry and just break down.
But i told myself, breaking down is not the solution.
Right now, i should brush up on my English and my humanities.
To get into JC or Poly.
And into my dream course! :D
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Been an NCO is not an easy job.
When i first receive this position, being a Sec 3 Level head and 3rd IC for NHT,
I thought it is a very very easy job as Sec 3, there is nothing for me to handle and NHT,
I can slack what since i am the 3rd IC.
But i was wrong, totally wrong.
Right now, my sec 3 level, attendance is not up to standard.
Who to blame?
Me.
Right now, NHT trail's proposal is not well done.
Who to blame?
Me.
Right now, my cadets failed RCK Gold and got scolded by VI.
Who to blame?
Me.
Everything is my fault right now.
The feeling and stress is really killing me.
And worse thing was, no one know it and i am handling it myself.
I am not saying that i need someone to support me but i just can't do it alone.
I need people for support and motivation to carry on.
But right now, NO ONE is helping me.
I fell down, no one is lending me the helping hand to help me carry on.
No one.
The feeling right now is really suckish.
I am not blaming anyone, but hey!
Is not that i am the only one doing this shit right?!
What the point of teacher pick you to being an NCO?
For fun?!
They pick you because they believe in you that you can lead the team into greater heights.
But right now, the way you treating me,
Really not suitable being an NCO. NOT AT ALL.
You should know who i am talking about.
What you think was to have fun and have the frame and having me to do the "backstage" work.
I even squeeze out my precious time to study and go out just for this shitty proposal.
But yet, no one appreciate this crap i done.
I can just don't care, i can just go out and have fun and leave this shit to you to do.
But i still care about this team that why i did that.
Right now, i am in this shit situation that i will be scolded by VI because of my carelessness.
You know how suckish and shitty am i ?
Damn man, i really feel like asking the teacher to just give me this proposal for me to do , on my own.
You all had made me do this. If you try to blow me up or anything,
I promise that i will just tell the teacher that all these while, I am the one who doing this and i will take all the credits for MYSELF.
Yes, MYSELF.
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Today, i had a lot of fun. Cooking Competition.
Though i didn't help much except in washing and chopping ingredients, but
I like the way we work with each other.
Though we were lacking behind, but when we just believe in ourselves that we can do it,
We really can do it! ^^
The food we made was nice and the others too!
We also shared our crazy moments with each other like have a VS between the teacher see who can do the most delicious egg ever.
But end of the day, we enjoyed ourselves and really bond us up together as a class :)
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Hehe, i know is kinda naggy but who care?
This is my blog, if you want to read, you are welcome but if you are not, you should know what to do *:)
I don't know whether i should do that or not.
It may impact the way you think of me and the way i treat you.
This is really frustrating .
And i knew that you wouldn't really care or you just ignore me.
But i have a wish.
That wish is to confess to you, face to face.
But right now, i don't even dare to take the first step towards you.
Kays, going to turn in, tireeeeeeeed. ~.~
Byes peeps and HAVE A GOOD DECEMBER HOLIDAYS! :)
